So here I am, the only thing separating me from madness is a hollow door with little structural support, and a cheap privacy lock. It is an unsettling thing when you are not safe in your own home. Those little ones are running crazy around the house with no restraint. I feel kind of bad for abandoning the four children in my house while their their mom and my mom are talking; but, I want some peace for a few minutes.
All of the kids are running around hitting and yelling, the only escape is my bedroom. I am all alone sitting on my bed, surrounded by cold air. My only source of entertainment and escape from physical containment is an iPad. Yes, it is quite entertaining. Currently I am using it to record these events in order to make sense of things. As I am tapping away, I hear a soft knock on the door. I know it is one of the little ones, so I ignore him. I feel bad for leaving him alone, but I need this peace. I hope they can forgive me.
